Soul Sugar

Just simply rotting is not the way ahead
Just put your body and mind and love to the test
Time is running out again
The movie’s almost over
I didn’t want you to see this
But I didn’t want you to miss it, baby
I thought you might like it

It’s just mind, body & love
I’ve got a ticket for you…

Come with me to the movies
Come with me, we’re in the movies
Just sit right down here by my side
And take a ride
I’ve got a ticket for you tonight

Soul sugar…come and take me down
‘Cause I’m giving away everything I’m handing out

Come with me to the movies
Come with me, we’re in the movies
I’ve got a ticket for you…

Cockroaches & the Spiders

Cockroaches and spiders
The room goes spin
Cockroaches and spiders
My head caves in

Hair is growing at a new accelerated speed of cancer
The cockroaches and the spiders are home
Turn the channel if you have a superphonic tri-broadcaster
The cockroaches and the spiders are home

Dopecin, hit again, same again, shit again
Into the void where I feel again
I’m home again with all my brethren
Hopeless and dead again, bluish and red again
Into the feel where I see again
Come home again, my little residents

I’ll say hi for you…hello
I’ll stay high for you

A simple mental overload and instant gratification
Another spider overboard…I missed it
Back to the station

High again, home again
Back with the cockroaches
Home again, here again
You know I can feel and see them

Cockroaches and the spiders

Fear of Losing Fear

I might come down

“For now” is where I dwell
It’s all I’ve ever known
But the percentages of new incentives
Has a tricky way of growing stronger
Still, it’s nice to stand in hell
While heaven’s overhead
But in my mind again I cannot find a single
Lucky fear to float me longer

Fear of losing fear and losing you subsequently
Is the only fear I have

Be my friendly fire
You & you alone

Tomorrow’s just a dream
I hope that I can know
But the percentages of different endings
Has a tricky way of growing old

The fear of losing fear and losing you subsequently
Is the only fear I have

Be my friendly fire
Be my known embrace

Facing a new dawn, tomorrow is coming
There’s no running or escape
Treacherous, trying, a little boy crying
There’s no mommy here today

Little phony, don’t be so blind
Little phony, make up your mind
Little boy, don’t get left behind
Little boy, go run and

Find a brand new way to earn your happiness
Before you come a man, little boy
Forge a brand new day and gain your peacefulness
Before tomorrow comes, little boy

I see you little boy, I know you
I’ll say hi for you…hello

A New Wing

‘Cause without you
I’m no one, I’m broken, a token for your play
‘Cause without you
I’m nothing, I’m faulted, and halted once again

Where were you when I became a man?
There were the tracest memories of “little boy” inside
I still had a fighting chance and
How can you be so oblivious?
It’s a condition that I live in and the temple likes to hide
What I can give to us

Building a new wing
Pouring concrete

But I’ll tear it all down if you ask
‘Cause without you
I’m no one, I’m broken, a token for your play
You know I’ll tear it all down if you ask
‘Cause without you
I’m nothing, I’m faulted, and halted once again

Why won’t you listen to my apologies?
It’s all an accidental miscommunication
I won’t again repeat and
Where were you when I became a mess?
It’s a condition that I live in and I thought you’d understand
I’ve nothing to give to us

Building a new wing
Pouring concrete
Building a new wing
Filling nothing

What did you learn, little boy?
Open your book and tell me
What the lesson is today
I want to shake you and wake you
To all the mistakes you will make in life
I wish you could remember me

Please don’t do it again, little boy

Ballad of the Misinformed

So you think you’re the one
But you’re just the one who thinks that
Bulletproof…you are not
Let me fire again, I’ll show you

Shoot you in the heart with a word and then you run away
A posse of ego strokers to make you think it’s okay…it’s okay
Better is only better than what you were calling better yesterday
Yesterday…

What you think you are is what you wanna be
Grow some skin and understand that hope is easy here

If you think you’re clever, then just solve the riddle
Looking for the answer but it’s in the middle
Solve it…you think you can
Solve it…if you dare

Fire into your ego with words and then you run away
Emotional Kevlar will never make it just go away…it’s not okay
Best is only best when you know that better is far away

What you think you are is what you wanna be
Grow some skin and understand that hope is easy here

If you think you’re clever, then just solve the riddle
Looking for the answer but it’s in the middle
Solve it…you think you can
Solve it…if you dare

The ballad of the misinformed
Somebody needs to tell you
Get off to egocentric porn
The truth will never quell you

Mind Body & Love I: Still Drivin

An acceptable frame of mind so far behind me and
An exultant state of mind is what you find me

You know I fumble with my vices
My life’s timeline in splices
I reach to bring them back together again

An acceptable state of life is what I strive for
An exultant way of life is what you find me

I know that I’m not fun to ride with
Broke down but still I’m driving
You’re my mechanic
Won’t you put me back together?

Pop my hood
Open me up and see what’s wrong inside

And when the party’s over
I may take off my hat and say hello
If you’re still around to listen
You know the hardest part is
Relaxing in my own skin
I might come down this season

I know my point of no return
And I’m long gone
I stopped caring a thousand hits ago
I still take comfort in the burn
But it’s a long song
I stopped singing a thousand hits ago

Embracing everything umbilical..my fill
Mobility impossible, I’m standing still

Take me for me and
It would be better to see
Everything I have to give
But we both know
It would be better for me
If I could hide everything
Add A to B and
It would be better for C
If you could just run away
But we both know
It would be better for me
If I could hide everything
And just be A-Okay

Mind Body & Love II: Over It

Take this, my body and my blood

This shoddily built temple that I reside in every day…it’s for you

Playfulness expires…I’m over it
Youthfulness retires…I’m over it
Selfishness inspires…I’m over it
Happiness requires…I’m over it
Mental degradation…I’m over it
Virtual castration…I’m over it
Memory mutation…I’m over it
Lifelong violation…I’m over it and now it’s over

My body, my blood
It’s all for you
Just take what you want to
But there’s not much left to save

Take this, my body and my blood

Mind Body & Love III: Tell

If I told you…
So long, goodbye
If I told you that I loved you
Would you run away where I can’t find you?
So long, goodbye

I’ve given you mind
And I gave to you my body
My insides
Will the distance make you stronger?
Will the distance just grow longer?
I fear you’ll never see me again
I’ll say bye for you

If I told you…

I’ve given you my mind
And I gave to you my love
Everything I ever had inside
Will the distance make you stronger?
Will the distance just grow longer?
I fear you’ll never see me again
I’ll say bye for you
Will you miss me when you linger?
Will you hope to see me nearer?
I bet you never see me again
I’ll say by for you

Goodbye…so long

You know I fumble with my vices
My life’s timeline in splices
I reach to bring them back together again
I know that I’m not fun to ride with
Broke down but still I’m driving
You’re my mechanic
Won’t you put me back together?

Cinnamon

See me down inside the bottle
Swimming low, I am the worm
I’m the creepy-crawly on my own skin
My whole life has been full-throttle
Always taking on the world
Starting fresh…where do I begin?

One step, down soft…out in front of me
Two step goes down easy

Push me, I am ever-fragile
Ducking out, I feel the burn
Hiding from that and hiding from this today
My whole life has been a battle in black and white
I’m the grunt, I’m the General on point
Walking my own front line

Three step, down hard…stuck in memory
Four step, out of reach and mocking me

Riding the junkie monkey train
Down to the station where it begins again
Blighted…there’s no way out
Of this intricate webbing of sin I’m in

The world’s so pretty and I’m so not
And my best is all I fucking got
So just please don’t take it down a notch
‘Cuz there’s nothing at the bottom
When I’m sitting in my barricade
Just staring at the stupid fucking walls I made
Then you know that’s where you’ll find me laid
Inside the sin I’m in

Find me, I’m waiting

My body’s all in order
Just take the papers to that door
I’ll be right here
Pull my body to the window
I want to see it all once more
Right here

Would you burn me…burn the webbing?
Would you burn me and free me forever?

What is this?
It’s such a beautiful place

All Over

It’s all over now
Time to say goodbye
It’s all over now
For good this time

So my mind is resting
And finally I’ll get some sleep
Just a little shuteye
Is all my body ever needed anyway

Soul sugar, come and take me down
‘Cuz I’ve given away everything I’ve handed out
Did you burn me…
Burn the webbing and free me forever?
Did you burn me, baby?

When you look back in the rearview mirror of life
Will you think of me?
Will you think of my mind, body, or love?
On your deathbed, when you glimpse significant past
Will you think of me?
Will you think of my mind, body, and love?

I should have told you again and again, my love
I’m yours forever
Again and again
My love, don’t leave me here
So lonely and cold

With the rain comes the pain holding hands
From the heavens above
Into the ground…down into me
Seeping into me
Creeping into me
Sinking into me
Down into me